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Day 310 Today was a long and arduous day to say the least. Exhausting, tiring and at this point you get it. Another day in the office, met with my account not working properly and not doing any work for a good hour and a bit. Especially annoying after I went early. Fml am I right. Then work itself was busy with a ton of visitors coming into the office, full of DEMANDS the bastards lol.

Day 311 I honestly am drained, I'm tired and I'm not really taking care of myself properly which is making myself feel worse. It's not a great situation but honestly I really can't be bothered. I don't even know where I got the energy and motivation to write this post this evening, that's how over I am about this day. So obviously this isn't going to be a long post.

“You stupid slut.”

#ChapterThree

Day 312 Say, isn't it wild. That we do so much but we rely on others to make ourselves feel better. As if all of our efforts and work are all just a means of seeking gratitude from someone else. Relying on that person to say good job, well done. Then we'll feel better about ourselves.

Day 313 I know. I do. I have been MIA for a bit, I have been busy these last couple of weeks as well as a tad bit lazy, but as you know it does happen. I have been a bit more disciplined in other things which has had somewhat of a positive affect (or is it effect) but I will come back to updating this again daily. Maybe tomorrow or shortly after that.

I have been busy with a potential new project in the works which is quite exciting, and I really hope it pans out. I have an interview with some investors and partners in approx. 10 days which is one of the reasons I've been busy. Plus work has been taking up a lot of my time as of late. More project work on that front which has been fun but also a pain in the ass, as I have less free time during the day.

Day Naught Well I'm back. Well I'm sure to make my return. Sure I've lost a lot in my time away, and no not only those of you who follow along, I mean much more than that. I don't remember where I left off last, vaguely can remember but even then it was so long ago I really cannot be bothered to remember.

Does this mark my return? I sure hope it does, as I want to pursue something in writing properly, as an avenue out of where I'm stuck at the moment. I want to write a book to begin with and then grow it out from there, delving into short pieces, poems, stories and beyond. I did a lot of writing back during covid but ever since I started to return to the office I just got busy, blind-sided and ultimately lazy with the things I wanted to do.

However, these last few days I've really started to regain parts of my former self. I feel more energetic, creative and starting to feel the urge of wanting to do things again! I can't really put my finger on where that's coming from but it something that has slowly ignited and I hope to allows the embers to burst forth. I mean I made it this far where I'm actually putting fingers to keyboard.

I truly do hope that I can slowly increase my creativity once again and allow that to come to fruition. Instead of lazily writing one or two pieces and ultimately nothing for months on end.

I do miss the old me. The 2020 me. Posting daily. But that's what covid afforded us, free time and full control of time. So now the schedule is forming and becoming more stable I wish to see you all here.

#TalesOfTheInbetween

Day Naught Well I'm back. Well I'm sure to make my return. Sure I've lost a lot in my time away, and no not only those of you who follow along, I mean much more than that. I don't remember where I left off last, vaguely can remember but even then it was so long ago I really cannot be bothered to remember.

Does this mark my return? I sure hope it does, as I want to pursue something in writing properly, as an avenue out of where I'm stuck at the moment. I want to write a book to begin with and then grow it out from there, delving into short pieces, poems, stories and beyond. I did a lot of writing back during covid but ever since I started to return to the office I just got busy, blind-sided and ultimately lazy with the things I wanted to do.

However, these last few days I've really started to regain parts of my former self. I feel more energetic, creative and starting to feel the urge of wanting to do things again! I can't really put my finger on where that's coming from but it something that has slowly ignited and I hope to allows the embers to burst forth. I mean I made it this far where I'm actually putting fingers to keyboard.

I truly do hope that I can slowly increase my creativity once again and allow that to come to fruition. Instead of lazily writing one or two pieces and ultimately nothing for months on end.

I do miss the old me. The 2020 me. Posting daily. But that's what covid afforded us, free time and full control of time. So now the schedule is forming and becoming more stable I wish to see you all here.

#TalesOfTheInbetween

Day 401 I often find myself coming back to this place when I feel lost or adrift, it's the place where I can come and attempt to clear my thoughts in an empty place. It's become sort of a safe haven for me to sort through my feelings and start again.

I find myself again, on the precipice of depression and bored. Where life becomes black and white and void of life. But I am handling it a lot better than I have in the past where I've just let it overcome me and left me empty without reason.

Day 402 I hate the feeling of being made to feel lesser than you are. The feeling of being told you're not good enough. The feeling of you're failing to live up to expectations and not up to scratch.

Day 403 So the weekend was busy. As was Monday. I'm in the process of moving (again) and it's been a very stressful and laborious task to say the least. On top of that I'm having to come into the office so balancing everything has been quite the act and a strain on my finances. Doesn't help when I buy the wrong train ticket and it isn't refundable. Fucking bullshit to say the least but you live and you learn in all honesty but! I never do learn as I've done this same mistake a few times already lol.

Day 404 I think this is the latest post number, I know I've had to update or move over a couple from Anon posts but I'm not sure why it does that, and it generally only ever happens when I'm writing a post on my phone. But anyway it is Sunday today and I'm wrapping up a few things and still got some other shit to do. There's always a lot of shit to do which pisses me off but that's life I suppose when you got responsibilities.

Yesterday was nice though, I sacrificed an entire day to do nothing and did nothing, just watched this Korean drama on Netflix. Literally for the entire day I destroyed that show whilst taking breaks to watch another Netflix show which was Indonesian all while taking more breaks to watch 8 out of 10 cats on YouTube. So it was a damn good day but it did mean I didn't do anything at all but again it was so damn good.