Day 79 Today was more of the same as yesterday, woke up at 10 but went back to sleep but I actually caught a couple of messages from my manager and somehow replied then knocked out again. It was a monumental success I'd say lol then I woke up 10 mins before my meeting, washed up and then attended it somehow lol after that I showered up, felt nice and refreshed, I even allowed myself to think for once about other than myself, I then delved into the imaginary worlds and then back to reality to continue working.
I managed to fix a couple of things but it didn't seem to work for my manager which annoyed me, I also looked into a couple of existing tickets, try to show progress on those also. I may or may not update tickets over the weekend but it's highly doubtful. So literally focused on one main ticket and the two smaller once compensated as I hit a roadblock which is always nice to have on the side. But in all fairness I am someone who sticks on one task way too long which is often my downside. I don't know, maybe because it's Friday I just didn't have the motivation to keep going.
I, also switched off and then basically isolated myself from everyone from about 6 to 10. Just did what I wanted to do and it felt good like I needed a break but at the same time I felt kind of guilty that I was doing it. I can't really explain the emotions I was going through but it was most definitely conflicting. Like it's good I'm doing this but also feel that aspect of guilt within my heart. I watched a lot of netflix and ate pizza, did a lot of laying down in bed too lol. I also felt highly motivated to do a lot of things, it's like when I switched off from the main things in life, all the smaller things started populating in my mind. Tomorrow and Sunday I'll aim to be more open in my thinking as today was the distractor, if you will.
Then I spent an hour or so with the fam in the late evening, surprised everyone was awake at that time but it is Friday night, so it's doubtful they'd all be asleep but soon before long, they started going to their rooms to sleep.
I then came upstairs, spent so long thinking about what to watch that I didn't end up watching anything but YouTube again. I mean I really need to cut down on YouTube, I'm watching far too much of it and it's not even good shit most of the time. It's just worthless content but I do find those gems there and here but I end up spending like 2/3 hours on it before going to sleep. I mean that's just far too long for me to spend on YouTube before going to sleep. I really need to cut it down to like an hour and a half or something. We'll see, all I know is I am addicted to that shit.
Now, I'm just writing this and I plan to sleep straight after writing unlike yesterday, even though my eyes are calling for a bit of YouTube but I can't, I deserve to sleep early, (well relatively) and I shall try to do so tonight. So until tomorrow where it'll be another 2am post, night.