Daily posts – either fact or fiction – about what goes on in my life (includes thoughts too now)
Day 2517 It's one of those days. You know where nothing is quite right, things don't fall into place. It's not necessarily a bad day but not quite good either. An in-between, one of those days you much rather forget about and move right on but it has those annoying nagging components which you dwell on far too long.
It's been one of those days. I much rather forget about it. Hopefully I won't be able to look back at it.
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Day 2516 I feel I have changed over these last 4 years. As I've taken strides in my life and career I definitely feel the effects of it. I feel worn out and worn down. This job requires me to be in the office 5 days a week which I am starting to find tough if I'm being honest. Mainly due to a lack of sleep. Now not getting the right amount of sleep is really taking its toll on me. I hadn't realised what it does to a person, I understand sleep is important but I've never felt it like this before.
Day Naught
Pursuit of happiness.
We've conflated it for the pursuit of money, power and sex.
We run to the top as fast as we can in order to feel happiness.
We sacrifice our youth and time in order to earn extra dime. We say to ourselves I'll rest when I'm dead.
But death came to us long before we noticed.
I know you've heard this all before and find it so clichy but I'm not asking you to give up chasing your money.
Just don't drag me down when we can't find anything in common.
I'm happy with my life. I'm happy with my job. I'm happy with how little or much I earn. I'm content with it all.
I get you can't find your happiness. Do another 60 hours. I'm sure you'll find it somewhere.
#TalesOfTheInbetween
Day 2515 Does it make sense to force myself to write. When I don't want to or have to catch a flight. Should I sit down and find the time to scribble something down. Clear out the heavens and the earth in order to type it out on the ground.
Day 2514 I'm quite happy with how I've managed to post what I owed, I got to write a few random pieces, I don't know if they're any good but they are now in the ether of the internet. I guess that's how you get better by posting your shit out there and see what sticks and what doesn't. Although I still feel like this platform is still a bubble, step removed from the mainstream, I also feel like the community is smaller than how it was during covid. Who knows really, I've been thinking about publishing beyond these walls and maybe going a bit more mainstream but there's always that aspect of fear holding me back. What if it truly isn't any good. But why should that matter deep down. I'm just doing this for the love of it. Realistically even if no one views this would it stop me from posting? No.
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Day Naught
Love. I never thought I'd experience like this. Love. Fairytales and Hollywood never told me was going to be like this. Love. The happiness, joy and I feel when I see you is indescribable. Love. From the ups and downs. Love. I'm grateful for knowing you. Love. For you showing me a new side of. Love. You've captured my heart and soul, filling me with Love. For eternity.
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Day Naught
The script. Why is scripted dialogue the benchmark? Like I don't understand this. Video essays and written ones always use film or television as the benchmark on how to navigate or interact with life. Like I don't get it, it's scripted and no one talks like that in real life. We talk over eachother, barely listen to what the other person is saying and many of us aren't able to think of witty things on the fly. We wallow about it for days thinking about what we should have said in the shower 😂
Day 2513 Well more I hurt my back. I'm not even old but I hurt it bad, but not so bad where it's unbearable but bad enough where it hurts when I move. It's really annoying because it wasn't even the backs fault but another body part. I'm trying to get healthy and started working out again where this isn't ideal but it's annoying because it's not even the fault of a body part but an external injury.
Fucking fragile shit.
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Day 2512 What do I do when I don't know what to write? Do I post ramblings about my day to fill my quota? It's hard to always have insights on the fly. Do I post nothing and let that knaw at me? It's hard to be creative just like that...the words to come to me like they used to and when they do they're eager to leave me stranded. I find it hard to find the time to put thought to paper. Perhaps I need to be quicker with capturing them.
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Day 2511 So I'm aware I've been absent this past week. What can I say; work has been busy, home life has been busy so unfortunately those things took a bit of a priority. So I'm looking to get back into the swing of things and resume our regular scheduled programming lol
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