Day Naught.
I miss playing control. I felt like it was such a great game, and the story was good and the gameplay was good. Everything about it I really enjoyed. I loved the lord behind it as well as the overall creepyness. I know Alan wake is in the same universe but I don't know if it'll come close to the lore of control. It was on my list to play for a few years and I finally got around to it earlier in the year and boy has it left a lasting impression.
The next game on my list is ghost of Tsushima. Let's see if it lives up to the hype. I kind of purchased a lot of games at the back end of last year so I've got a few to get through.
#TalesOfTheInbetween
Day 2526
Sometimes I don't know what to write. So I don't write and so I don't post and other times it hits me like a bolt of lightening. Then there are moments where it permeates for a couple of days and I'll jot it down. I understand it's my own fault because I dedicate no time to it like I used to in the past. It's like if I can be done in 3 mins or less I'll write and post if not then days until my next shitty thought.
I understand it's my own fault this is something I want to do but I dedicate no time to it. I feel like in the past it was very much on the forefront of my mind but as I've aged other priorities have gotten in the way. There are a few things I want to do but I feel like it get usurped by things that don't require much brain power. I get it, once I'm home from work I don't really feel like doing anything but honestly why? I know I have capacity but it just falls by the wayside, ultimately.
Much to think about, routines to tinker until I find my perfect one. Then that'll need changing too!
#Chapter25
Day 2525
We are indeed so fragile.
Physically. Emotionally. Spiritually.
One tweak and there goes your life.
Someone says something and there goes your offense.
Let's be real you had no spiritually in the first place.
We go about this earth like we mean something. We'll be dead before long. Forgotten by those ones who love us.
Even those we cherish so much can be dead to us.
Walk with some humility.
Be sombre.
Remember those below you.
You never know who's going to handle you,
Hereafter.
#Chapter25
Day Naught.
Trust.
It's hard to build but so easy to break.
Then even harder to rebuild.
Honestly at this point it's say it's near impossible.
Always keep it in your back pocket and never let it go.
Never be truthful when it comes to breaking once trust.
It's not worth throwing away anything meaningful.
Do better and repair the defects.
Focus on yourself and be the cure.
Fix it.
#TalesOfTheInbetween
Day 2524
Life truly has a habit of kicking you in the nuts unexpectedly, and then giving you immense relief. It's a struggle at times no doubt, the emotion have a field day and plan to ruin your day. Then there's the humans who try to ruin you. Self interest runs rampant. They get upset at you when you have their energy. Then the tests come after that to guage your reaction. It's a shitty situation but that's where your emotions need to be under control. But mine were not in that moment but I handled it better than last time.
Sometimes you have malicious ways to deal with it but it's better to let it go and be normal. An unbothered attitude is the best attitude one can argue. Especially when it isn't that deep. Stoop to their level. But there's no need to go further.
#Chapter25
Day Naught.
Change.
We want you to change for the better.
We value self improvement and self growth.
We will support you and help you.
Change.
No way.
We can't believe you changed.
Who are you.
We liked you better before.
We don't like this new you.
You think you're better than us.
#TalesOfTheInbetween
Day 2523
Where do you go from here.
You've got a lot to achieve and a long way to go.
But it feels difficult at times and you just want to give up.
We've gotten too comfortable with your life.
Safe job.
Safe house.
Safe life.
#Chapter25
Day 2522
Don't you find it enjoyable.
When it all comes together.
The moment. The time.
The feeling of greatness.
Sike.
We're all on the cusp of nothingness.
Born to be forgotten.
Our achievements lost to time.
Left in the darkness.
#Chapter25
Day 2521
I feel clearer. I feel better. I feel slightly refreshed but honestly for the first time in a long time I don't feel shit or down in the dumps. I'm not sure what's different but I don't feel hazed and I just overall feel healthier. Earlier in the day I felt like shit, didn't sleep enough and was tired. When I got home from work same thing just tired. But now I don't know what changed. I just feel alive.
#Chapter25
Day 2521
Tiredness.
I feel it in my bones.
In my soul.
From the core to the floor.
The feeling of being out of it in the thick of it.
Barely conscious.
But there's no forgiving it.
We all feel it.
But there's no mercy toward it.
No excuses or acceptance for not getting our 8 hours.
Mocked for sleeping early but reprimand for our tired mistakes.
Good ol' tiredness.
You gotta hate it.
#Chapter25