Day 402 I hate the feeling of being made to feel lesser than you are. The feeling of being told you're not good enough. The feeling of you're failing to live up to expectations and not up to scratch.
Daily posts – either fact or fiction – about what goes on in my life (includes thoughts too now)
Day 402 I hate the feeling of being made to feel lesser than you are. The feeling of being told you're not good enough. The feeling of you're failing to live up to expectations and not up to scratch.
Day 401 I often find myself coming back to this place when I feel lost or adrift, it's the place where I can come and attempt to clear my thoughts in an empty place. It's become sort of a safe haven for me to sort through my feelings and start again.
I find myself again, on the precipice of depression and bored. Where life becomes black and white and void of life. But I am handling it a lot better than I have in the past where I've just let it overcome me and left me empty without reason.
Day Naught Well I'm back. Well I'm sure to make my return. Sure I've lost a lot in my time away, and no not only those of you who follow along, I mean much more than that. I don't remember where I left off last, vaguely can remember but even then it was so long ago I really cannot be bothered to remember.
Does this mark my return? I sure hope it does, as I want to pursue something in writing properly, as an avenue out of where I'm stuck at the moment. I want to write a book to begin with and then grow it out from there, delving into short pieces, poems, stories and beyond. I did a lot of writing back during covid but ever since I started to return to the office I just got busy, blind-sided and ultimately lazy with the things I wanted to do.
However, these last few days I've really started to regain parts of my former self. I feel more energetic, creative and starting to feel the urge of wanting to do things again! I can't really put my finger on where that's coming from but it something that has slowly ignited and I hope to allows the embers to burst forth. I mean I made it this far where I'm actually putting fingers to keyboard.
I truly do hope that I can slowly increase my creativity once again and allow that to come to fruition. Instead of lazily writing one or two pieces and ultimately nothing for months on end.
I do miss the old me. The 2020 me. Posting daily. But that's what covid afforded us, free time and full control of time. So now the schedule is forming and becoming more stable I wish to see you all here.
#TalesOfTheInbetween
Day Naught Well I'm back. Well I'm sure to make my return. Sure I've lost a lot in my time away, and no not only those of you who follow along, I mean much more than that. I don't remember where I left off last, vaguely can remember but even then it was so long ago I really cannot be bothered to remember.
Does this mark my return? I sure hope it does, as I want to pursue something in writing properly, as an avenue out of where I'm stuck at the moment. I want to write a book to begin with and then grow it out from there, delving into short pieces, poems, stories and beyond. I did a lot of writing back during covid but ever since I started to return to the office I just got busy, blind-sided and ultimately lazy with the things I wanted to do.
However, these last few days I've really started to regain parts of my former self. I feel more energetic, creative and starting to feel the urge of wanting to do things again! I can't really put my finger on where that's coming from but it something that has slowly ignited and I hope to allows the embers to burst forth. I mean I made it this far where I'm actually putting fingers to keyboard.
I truly do hope that I can slowly increase my creativity once again and allow that to come to fruition. Instead of lazily writing one or two pieces and ultimately nothing for months on end.
I do miss the old me. The 2020 me. Posting daily. But that's what covid afforded us, free time and full control of time. So now the schedule is forming and becoming more stable I wish to see you all here.
#TalesOfTheInbetween
Day 313 I know. I do. I have been MIA for a bit, I have been busy these last couple of weeks as well as a tad bit lazy, but as you know it does happen. I have been a bit more disciplined in other things which has had somewhat of a positive affect (or is it effect) but I will come back to updating this again daily. Maybe tomorrow or shortly after that.
I have been busy with a potential new project in the works which is quite exciting, and I really hope it pans out. I have an interview with some investors and partners in approx. 10 days which is one of the reasons I've been busy. Plus work has been taking up a lot of my time as of late. More project work on that front which has been fun but also a pain in the ass, as I have less free time during the day.
Day 312 Say, isn't it wild. That we do so much but we rely on others to make ourselves feel better. As if all of our efforts and work are all just a means of seeking gratitude from someone else. Relying on that person to say good job, well done. Then we'll feel better about ourselves.
Day 311 I honestly am drained, I'm tired and I'm not really taking care of myself properly which is making myself feel worse. It's not a great situation but honestly I really can't be bothered. I don't even know where I got the energy and motivation to write this post this evening, that's how over I am about this day. So obviously this isn't going to be a long post.
“You stupid slut.”
#ChapterThree
Day 310 Today was a long and arduous day to say the least. Exhausting, tiring and at this point you get it. Another day in the office, met with my account not working properly and not doing any work for a good hour and a bit. Especially annoying after I went early. Fml am I right. Then work itself was busy with a ton of visitors coming into the office, full of DEMANDS the bastards lol.
Day 309 Sooo today was actually a really tiring day. It all started when I couldn't really fall asleep last night, maybe it was the excitement of going back into the office on a Monday morning! Or, not. Who can tell?! My legs were hurting and thus prevented me from falling asleep quickly – like I always do this to myself it's like a whole ass stupid routine, my legs hurt I do nothing about it for hours then I stretch and fall asleep – I did eventually like God knows when and before I knew it my alarm woke me up. You see those of you who have been around know I struggle with keeping up a good routine, it's easily one of my most talked, written? Topics since the days of old. But now I really feel like I've managed to get a good one going! It's really balanced and nice but the only issue is I have to wake up early which I can't do and sleep early which is always a struggle.
The Tales of the Inbetween
Well I sorted out the contents page now, so I understand there are a LOT of posts, so you can check out specific chapters from now on, I'm actually proud of myself lol it did take a fucking while for me to do every single post, fortunately I had some Breaking Bad in the background, I did decide to give the show another go, and actually I have been enjoying it more so this time around.
But anyways I need to get up and shower up before I get ready for dinner. Korean BBQ tonight :D