Ahhh I was supposed to write something yesterday but got my days mixed up thinking I already did. That's my bad, I should take better care of my writing. We've just past the half way mark and no I'm no closer to writing my first book as I was 5 years ago when the ideas first came trickling down. I don't know what it is but seems like I always put everything before it.
It's probably down to a fear of failing. It sucks but I should and have to push through it. Which is easier said than done. I feel like I always talk about pushing through but always fail to do so. I just need space and time to filter through the bullshit.
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Two days in a row. Who am I Stephen King!
In all seriousness been a busy fucking morning here in the thunderdome, as I drop the kids to the pool it allows me some breathing room to chill and reflect on things.
Life has been busy at work and outside of work. Have been really getting into the flow with some non-work projects and finally I have begun working on my homelab! Granted I have yet to build it and all the parts are here as of a couple of days ago. I need to start putting that shit together – I'm just concerned about the bios versions and the CPU gen.
Other than that I've started to take my health seriously again and begun the journey of eating better, smaller and working out more consistently. So in reality everything is sort of falling into it's painful place and I'm hoping this does also now. Just gotta find the time to do so.
But yeah those are some of the tales from the beyond.
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Hi don't know why I can't commit myself to writing. It's getting a bit absurd thinking about it. I went from writing regularly then to not at all in the space of a couple of weeks. I tried to get back into the swing of things but honestly it just failed miserably.
I've been really busy outside of work which has been contributing to this lack of time but even then it's just an excuse. I need to pick a routine that works for me and you know, just stick to it.
So here we go and let's try to reset this thing for the 200th time.
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Again.
You know I do this.
Again.
Over and over.
Again.
I build up so much momentum.
Again.
For it to come crumbling down.
Again.
I'll say I'll be consistent.
Again.
But it just keeps failing, all over.
Again.
Let us start.
Again.
And hope this time we make it through it all.
Again.
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Lost.
Lost in time. Where does it go, I was supposed to update this a while go
But I lost myself and lost my time. Before I know it's been a month with some change to go
But honestly I need to get a grip for I don't know where I'll stick
I need to refocus myself on the things that matter.
You never know when it'll all just scatter.
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Time.
I feel like I never have enough of it. Like I had more when I was younger, a lot more free time when I was alone, endless summers. The 24 felt like something real. You felt each minute of the day.
Then you start working. Start cohabitating. The things you when you're broke and alone. But it's the natual trade-off. Less alone time and more together time. No more summer holidays just 20 days of leave.
After all that it just goes back. Endless alone time with endless summers. Unable to move like you used to but you have your peace and quiet. More broke and less responsibility but time counts down.
Until you're no more.
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Day Naught
Where do we go from here?
Our life was filled with passion and excitement
Only for the rug to be pulled
Things have died down
And I'm stuck here holding on
Am I the crazy one
You know for not moving past it
Whilst you hold it down.
Am I the crazy one
To have moved on
Whilst you complain of neglect.
What did you expect
From this sort of ending
Did you not foresee this coldness
From back then
Or did you want your cake and eat it.
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Day unknown
It's cold here.
I don't know where to turn anymore.
I can't see beyond my hands.
I can't hear you.
Speak to me someone.
My heart hurts.
I can't breath
This pain is too much for me
I can't scream
They watch me
Dark and growling
From my bed I hear them
They're waiting for me
They're waiting
Pls
Help me
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Day unknown.
Part 1
Regression
Don't you feel as you've gotten older you've regressed.
Is it old age or tiredness?
Do you care less now or are you just not bothered?
The motivation is drained and left behind
As you leave behind your youth
The vigour
The struggle
The drive
Left at nature's doorstep
As we all seek out the divine.
Read more...
Day Naught.
Happiness.
How do you deal with it?
Do you kind it with kindness or ignore it?
Do you embrace it or fight it?
Happiness?
What's that you might ask
You don't acknowledge it nor do you accept it
It could never come to me as it looks into your eyes
How can I be happy when my life is like this
Sometimes it's the little things
But there's no point explaining it to you
For you can't experience it.
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