Day 37 Well today, what can I say about the day I'm entangled within, it's not the start of a great one, I don't know why I've been feeling terribl, I've been on a gradual slump in terms of emotion and mood, Sunday started off as good and I feel like a rock climber trying to regain his position but keeps slipping due to the wet stonned wall which he's trying to embark upon. Maybe it's due to me being cooped up all week and generally a midweek outing helps break it up, but I have moments like these, where it feels like I'm circling the drain speak.

But odd as it sounds, getting these thoughts out in the open actually is helping weirdly enough. I'm not the most articulate when it comes to opening up, mainly due to the fact that I often need time to process these things and most of the time I don't give a moment to it.

Day 36 Well I'm 4 pages DEEEEEP son!

Sorry about that, well, today, I got up slightly easier than the last couple of days combined. Woke up around 10:30 and then decided to stay up. It was a little tough but I managed to do so, then I proceeded to wash up as I needed the lavatory. I didn't shower this morning as I had a bath last night but I'll have one mid-afternoon as I plan to do some ligh working out.

I did yoga again for the first time in ages and I stretched limbs that haven't been stretched in months lol, so it was nice and much needed. I hope to carry it on, so I'm thinking when I wake up I'll do an hour of working out and yoga then shower and start my day. Get the blood flowing and there's another set that you can do before going to sleep, which I hope improves my sleep. It works, I almost fell asleep earlier on. Felt so relaxed and lovely.

Day 35 Today, well another difficult day in terms of getting up this morning, I remember waking up around 8:45 then going back to sleep. Perhaps I should have gotten up at that time at least I could have done something productive. But I fell back asleep and continued to do so until around 10 something. I, once again struggled to wake and get up. I really don't know. Maybe I'm just sleeping far too late for my body's liking and it's telling me off.

Furthermore, I woke and finally got around to that project work (setting up a cardano node on an AWS server) in total it took around, 6 or 7 hours to do. I finally understand most of what I was doing but the one tool I needed, wasn't working. So now I have to wait until the hardfork tomorrow and re-visit it at some point.

Day 34 Ah back to the early posts, well today literally started 40 mins ago, I overslept, Monday mornings are Monday mornings; regardless of the fact that you're in the office or working from home. It's still a damn struggle waking up in the morning. Ontop of that I felt the cold breeze against my skin and when the temperature is low and that breeze hits you it isn't a pleasant feeling. It seems like the 3 days of summer is finally over here and the heavens have opened and the rain has poured asunder (luckily there's been no thunder) but it's doing wonders for my CPU temp lol the cold temp not the rain.

Last night, I slept a little too late for comfort, I think around 3ish I actually don't remember when exactly I fell asleep but I do remember roughly when it occured. I didn't do much in all fairness, watched some YouTube, caught up with some group chats then watched YouTube again as a means to help me sleep but also because I've been enthralled into that new channel I've been watching. After that all I remember is my alarm going off and well you know the rest.

Day 33 Today, was a pleseant day, I actually got up at a good time unlike most Sunday's, had a lovely long-ish bath and I got out around 2ish so a bit late for comfort. Went down the stairs and the entire floor soaked, due to the mopping of floorboards, so I couldn't do much. So I quickly scurried to my bedroom and put on a film. It wasn't too long and light-hearted bits of comedy here and there. So it was nice and enjoyable.

I also got some light reading done also and when I was half asleep invested in something but didn't keep track. Kinda don't want to either at this point lol. But I will check it tomorrow and monitor it. Lastly I tried to do some work on a project but got side-tracked and didn't really get to spend time on it as I would have liked. So that'll be pushed back until tomorrow.

Day 32 I'm back to writing on Saturday, meaning I am not unwell and in good health (I hope.) I can hopelessly unfit and with everything opening again, I kinda want to be fit before I start playing any sport, so I gotta implement some sort of regiment. I did start in the beginning of the lockdown but after the first 3 days I just stopped (mainly due to havingno room or privacy to do anything) but now I got the space to do so I will do. I'll probably start off with core body exercises and light yoga, I want strengthen and become more nimble and flexible. Hopefully I'll start this evening or tomorrow. I shall keep you updated.

Furthermore I need to train my mind, so I want to narrow down some subjects I want to cover, so naturally I have to come up with a “curriculum” and I use that word loosely. So I'm thinking it'll be light reading on those subject matters and build some understanding. The topics that really interest me at the moment are; History, Economics (kinda do started that already), current-events, political ideology and Philosophy. I think that's a good place to start, if you have any recommendations do let me know.

Day 31 Today I woke up in a state of shock and upset. I was told that someone close, their father had passed away. I felt upset, sad and grief overcome me. Not only for the deceased but all those whom have been left behind. Being unable to be by their side, is another hurtful and saddening thing, not being able to comfort them in their time of need.

It also forces you to contemplate the mortality of those around you and ultimately yourself. Death is a grievance that every human can appreciate as; Every soul shall taste death. There's no escaping it, no running away from it. When it's your time, you are either forced or go willingly. Into the afterlife and your perception on that solely depends on what you believe will happen next.

Day 30 The start to the day was as labourious as many, I had some good sleep, slept at a good time (it was a bit later than I was originally hoping) I woke up at a decent time, but that's when the trouble began. I found it so tough getting up from my over comfortable bed, that I wanted to continue sleeping until the moon greeted me and stars guided my travels. But I was unable to do so, as work was awaiting my presence. So I got up and did the usual (also stayed off of my phone) so I'm back to that hopefully, I've also got a family thing to attend so I had to look semi-presentable to that so cleaned up. I also need to cut my nails, they're growing and I truly loathe long nails.

Day 29 I was so tired today, slept like shit and it was quite a busy day today. I ended up being quite productive; today I spent most of my day focusing on my work, work. Got a task done which I needed to do even with all the background noise of other users popping up and requiring help. It actually felt good completing something from scratch (albeit with some guides), because its actually been some time since I have of it's nature.

Other than that, I really didn't do much else, I was surviving off of 4/5 hours of sleep and it was tough at times. I also broke a rule that I had set for myself; “Don't use my phone as soon as I wake up.” So honestly, I was right, when you used my phone I got pre-occupied with thoughts of things I read, conversations and interactions with those I spoke to you and was speaking to. Which annoyed me because as valuable as that is, it took away from my time and being able to self-reflect.

Day 25 & Co. “Good morning Vietnam!” Soo I've been gone for a couple of 3 days. But I have returned on the 4th. So enough pandering, I'll get into it now. I've been unwell these last few days and so highly unmotivated to do anything productive or get up from my bed. It all began Friday night; when the fire nation attacked! and I needed to rest and take it easy for a couple of days.

But I'm back at my desk and writing my post post since today would/should/is day 28 but I don't know how to now organise it other than how I'm currently doing it which is by grouping them all together.