RandomThoughts

Day 77 I forced myself to write this. Literally at the the end of my day. It's just turned 3 am and I wanted to be asleep like half an hour ago but it's still better than 6 am I suppose. Also I'm having this lingering anxious feeling; I don't know if it's due to me sleeping late or the fact that I'm sleeping. I felt more at ease staying awake on YouTube watching pointless videos than I did when I said to myself it's time to sleep.

Day 76 So just about writing this on time I think, and yes I'm counting this as Tuesday's post albeit extremely late. Today I woke up late but I did sleep earlier than I usually have been which mean I got some good sleep in.

Day 73 till now (Day 75) Right, I think I've completely botched the days but also kinda not. I'm pretty sure it is day 75 currently so that's what we're going to stick with :D

Day 68 to 72 (I think) Umm so yeah I'm back. It seems like these long pauses are becoming increasingly popular with myself and honestly it's not something I wanted to do and at times needed to do.

So let's begin shall we

Day 67 This is the first time I've been on my bed, in my room since I've woken up which has been about 10 hours or so. I mean this has to have been the longest time away from my room since before lockdown which is pretty insane if I don't say so myself. Like I actually can't get over how long it's been since I've done so.

Day 66 Today is a weird day if I do say so myself. I feel tired, drained and exhusted, I'm quite dehydrated and very stiff. I've had this weird on and off again headache which I haven't enjoyed at all. I slept very few hours and have had a fairly busy day dealing with IDIOTS but beyond all that, I feel a strange sense of calmness. Like I'm satisfied with everything yet I am on the cusps of a breakdown.

Day 65 Today I woke up at a decent time, 15 minutes after 11 in the morning, I couldn't lounge in bed as I usually do because nature came a-calling and it wasn't a pleasant one, hell it hasn't been pleasant all morning (all because of the KFC!). I've been a number of times already since I've been awake and that's only been around 2 hours now.

Day 64 All the days are honestly starting to merge into one big day again. Like a reoccuring weekday, not even a weekend and it is starting become a nuisance. Everyday is becoming increasingly busy and things are really starting to annoy me, it should be a fairly simple fix but it is so damn annoying because it should have been resolved by now.

Day 63 Today, today has been different to the last few days, mainly because I slept at a good time, I woke up just before my alarm and had a nice lay in for about 20/30 mins. I then proceeded with my usual routine of washing up, showering and not interacting with anyone before 12. Which really freed up my mind to think about other things and relax and ponder about me and life as a whole.

Day 62 Today I woke up earlier than I wanted to, mainly because I forgot to change the time of my alarm, like before going to sleep I said to myself that I really need to do so, Lo! and behold, I didn't and woke up at too early and it was horrible, my eye bags are looking worse and my eyes are increasingly bloodshot. I feel like they're super swollen. Also my body has been feeling more sore and stiff, I really need to restart my yoga and keep my body active or something! I need to do something!