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As I lay here awake. Until to meet my maker. Perhaps in a state. In which I am not worthy. I offer forgiveness and humbleness. But perhaps I am not worthy. Rest evades me. As my eyes become hollow. Knowing full well what comes tomorrow. It's almost as if I cross the barrier into an unknown realm. Marred by insomnia. As I lay here aware. Are you able to relate.

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Honestly getting injured is such an inconvenience, it's been 3 days going onto 4 and damn still not 100%. On top of all of this I can't even rest from home because work is so bloody busy.

I should be back to my normal routine by Thursday and full health by the weekend. One can be hopeful so gotta keep an eye on things.

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Isn't it a bit frustrating. You're starting to get into a bit of a hot streak then BAM something happens, which just derails the momentum that you're beginning to build. Starting working out again. Building up a good consistent routine then I get a random injury. I kinda know the root cause but no, it's got nothing to do with working out again – I would do well to stretch more – a random act of life, a series of random events leading up to an injury. Now I'm kinda sidelined for maybe a few days. Maybe a week. Honestly who knows but let's play it ear by ear.

It's going to be a very quiet and wet weekend.

Because of the rain. You dirty bastard.

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Ahhh I was supposed to write something yesterday but got my days mixed up thinking I already did. That's my bad, I should take better care of my writing. We've just past the half way mark and no I'm no closer to writing my first book as I was 5 years ago when the ideas first came trickling down. I don't know what it is but seems like I always put everything before it.

It's probably down to a fear of failing. It sucks but I should and have to push through it. Which is easier said than done. I feel like I always talk about pushing through but always fail to do so. I just need space and time to filter through the bullshit.

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Two days in a row. Who am I Stephen King!

In all seriousness been a busy fucking morning here in the thunderdome, as I drop the kids to the pool it allows me some breathing room to chill and reflect on things.

Life has been busy at work and outside of work. Have been really getting into the flow with some non-work projects and finally I have begun working on my homelab! Granted I have yet to build it and all the parts are here as of a couple of days ago. I need to start putting that shit together – I'm just concerned about the bios versions and the CPU gen.

Other than that I've started to take my health seriously again and begun the journey of eating better, smaller and working out more consistently. So in reality everything is sort of falling into it's painful place and I'm hoping this does also now. Just gotta find the time to do so.

But yeah those are some of the tales from the beyond.

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Hi don't know why I can't commit myself to writing. It's getting a bit absurd thinking about it. I went from writing regularly then to not at all in the space of a couple of weeks. I tried to get back into the swing of things but honestly it just failed miserably.

I've been really busy outside of work which has been contributing to this lack of time but even then it's just an excuse. I need to pick a routine that works for me and you know, just stick to it.

So here we go and let's try to reset this thing for the 200th time.

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Again. You know I do this. Again. Over and over. Again.
I build up so much momentum. Again. For it to come crumbling down. Again. I'll say I'll be consistent. Again.
But it just keeps failing, all over. Again. Let us start. Again. And hope this time we make it through it all. Again.

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Lost. Lost in time. Where does it go, I was supposed to update this a while go But I lost myself and lost my time. Before I know it's been a month with some change to go But honestly I need to get a grip for I don't know where I'll stick I need to refocus myself on the things that matter. You never know when it'll all just scatter.

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Day 2534 I've been absent. I'm aware. Initially it was supposed to be a prolonged break due to the Easter bank holidays but then there some unforeseen events with the family which kept me busy and unavailable. Death in the family and then my father's health worsening. Fortunately things are more stable and sort of back to normal without being back to normal.

So I won't be back now until next Monday where we'll be business as usual.

I'll see you all soon.

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Day 2533 I always go through this. I never know what to write. Or how to structure it. I have been becoming a bit more uniform in the overall structure of things so I'll probably start doing templates and the like so we'll see.

I do need to update my about me page for the upteenth time, maybe I'll date stamp it so I can keep track. I've been also trying to start being a bit more proactive in exposing this blog but idk how I feel about it entirely just yet. I know I've been pondering it for ages.

I'll also be enjoying the long weekend so skipping the usual Monday post, just an FYI for the 2 people who actually read this. But yeah last day of the week, it should be quiet so looking forward to it.

Work has slightly gotten interesting, for the first time in ages so long forward to that. And I am really trying to motivate myself with starting my first draft for my book. Need that motivation!

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