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Day Naught. Happiness. How do you deal with it? Do you kind it with kindness or ignore it? Do you embrace it or fight it? Happiness? What's that you might ask You don't acknowledge it nor do you accept it It could never come to me as it looks into your eyes How can I be happy when my life is like this Sometimes it's the little things But there's no point explaining it to you For you can't experience it.

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Day 2528 Growing responsibilities suck. Honestly really suck. I was thinking about how vastly my life has changed over the last 10 years and it is insane. I now have rent, bills for a small token of freedom. Grow up and move out they said. It'll be good for you they said. That freedom just ties you down and you end up paying someone else's mortgage or being another stream of income for a bank. Now I'm not saying leech off of your parents but I'm saying be patient and don't rush into things.

When you're in your early 20s you want to rush and get ahead in life but I look back and think was it worth it. We all need money ofc but is the stress worth it. Sacrificing everything around you just to work doesn't seem like a good deal and I don't even work that hard. I've seen some people around who spent 90% of their day working. Just because there's nothing else to do.

It's sad I suppose but honestly I wish to make the next 10 years of my life fruitful. I rather be happy and healthy and enjoy my time even if it's wasting away watching TV. I shudder to think that I'll be waking up tired to go to work a job which I dislike, a life where friends and family was a focus but now I barely have time to rest.

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Day 2527 I'm in disbelief really. March is coming to an end. I know we all keep saying how quickly time is flying but damn February and March have breezed by. I couldn't even tell you what happened. Life is passing by so quickly and I'm actually over it. I feel like I've entered the boring phase of my life. People expect you to be doing stuff and adulting but like I'm over it. I want to be lazy after work and waste my days away.

Maybe that's why my days are fleeting....

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Day Naught. Worse off. I think I'm the good one, always trying to make peace. The one who apologises first. I'm ok with doing that, I tend not to get angry or annoyed often but it happens, we're human. But why do I attract the moody ones. The frustrated ones. Perhaps I'm like that too. Unable to express myself when I'm upset or angry. But I try. Unlike the other side of the wall. Just shut off until it blows over. Over nothing either just some pettiness. How are you supposed to live with it forever. I suppose you just do. Those moments are fleeting. Between all the good ones. Egg shells get pretty tiring to walk upon.

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Day Naught. I miss playing control. I felt like it was such a great game, and the story was good and the gameplay was good. Everything about it I really enjoyed. I loved the lord behind it as well as the overall creepyness. I know Alan wake is in the same universe but I don't know if it'll come close to the lore of control. It was on my list to play for a few years and I finally got around to it earlier in the year and boy has it left a lasting impression.

The next game on my list is ghost of Tsushima. Let's see if it lives up to the hype. I kind of purchased a lot of games at the back end of last year so I've got a few to get through.

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Day 2526 Sometimes I don't know what to write. So I don't write and so I don't post and other times it hits me like a bolt of lightening. Then there are moments where it permeates for a couple of days and I'll jot it down. I understand it's my own fault because I dedicate no time to it like I used to in the past. It's like if I can be done in 3 mins or less I'll write and post if not then days until my next shitty thought.

I understand it's my own fault this is something I want to do but I dedicate no time to it. I feel like in the past it was very much on the forefront of my mind but as I've aged other priorities have gotten in the way. There are a few things I want to do but I feel like it get usurped by things that don't require much brain power. I get it, once I'm home from work I don't really feel like doing anything but honestly why? I know I have capacity but it just falls by the wayside, ultimately.

Much to think about, routines to tinker until I find my perfect one. Then that'll need changing too!

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Day 2525 We are indeed so fragile. Physically. Emotionally. Spiritually. One tweak and there goes your life. Someone says something and there goes your offense. Let's be real you had no spiritually in the first place. We go about this earth like we mean something. We'll be dead before long. Forgotten by those ones who love us. Even those we cherish so much can be dead to us. Walk with some humility. Be sombre. Remember those below you. You never know who's going to handle you, Hereafter.

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Day Naught. Trust. It's hard to build but so easy to break. Then even harder to rebuild. Honestly at this point it's say it's near impossible. Always keep it in your back pocket and never let it go. Never be truthful when it comes to breaking once trust. It's not worth throwing away anything meaningful. Do better and repair the defects. Focus on yourself and be the cure. Fix it.

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Day 2524 Life truly has a habit of kicking you in the nuts unexpectedly, and then giving you immense relief. It's a struggle at times no doubt, the emotion have a field day and plan to ruin your day. Then there's the humans who try to ruin you. Self interest runs rampant. They get upset at you when you have their energy. Then the tests come after that to guage your reaction. It's a shitty situation but that's where your emotions need to be under control. But mine were not in that moment but I handled it better than last time.

Sometimes you have malicious ways to deal with it but it's better to let it go and be normal. An unbothered attitude is the best attitude one can argue. Especially when it isn't that deep. Stoop to their level. But there's no need to go further.

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Day Naught. Change. We want you to change for the better. We value self improvement and self growth. We will support you and help you. Change. No way. We can't believe you changed. Who are you. We liked you better before. We don't like this new you.
You think you're better than us.

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