Day Naught.
Worse off.
I think I'm the good one, always trying to make peace.
The one who apologises first.
I'm ok with doing that, I tend not to get angry or annoyed often but it happens, we're human.
But why do I attract the moody ones. The frustrated ones.
Perhaps I'm like that too. Unable to express myself when I'm upset or angry.
But I try.
Unlike the other side of the wall. Just shut off until it blows over.
Over nothing either just some pettiness. How are you supposed to live with it forever. I suppose you just do. Those moments are fleeting. Between all the good ones.
Egg shells get pretty tiring to walk upon.
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Day Naught.
I miss playing control. I felt like it was such a great game, and the story was good and the gameplay was good. Everything about it I really enjoyed. I loved the lord behind it as well as the overall creepyness. I know Alan wake is in the same universe but I don't know if it'll come close to the lore of control. It was on my list to play for a few years and I finally got around to it earlier in the year and boy has it left a lasting impression.
The next game on my list is ghost of Tsushima. Let's see if it lives up to the hype. I kind of purchased a lot of games at the back end of last year so I've got a few to get through.
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Day Naught.
Trust.
It's hard to build but so easy to break.
Then even harder to rebuild.
Honestly at this point it's say it's near impossible.
Always keep it in your back pocket and never let it go.
Never be truthful when it comes to breaking once trust.
It's not worth throwing away anything meaningful.
Do better and repair the defects.
Focus on yourself and be the cure.
Fix it.
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Day Naught.
Change.
We want you to change for the better.
We value self improvement and self growth.
We will support you and help you.
Change.
No way.
We can't believe you changed.
Who are you.
We liked you better before.
We don't like this new you.
You think you're better than us.
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Day Naught.
I hate being cold. Just be normal with me and I'll be normal back. It's not hard it's just decency. If you don't wanna talk then that's cool too just let me know. Stop putting me in this limbo of annoyance. Perhaps it's my fault. I have to cut off the world in order to save myself from being cut. Back to the fake smiles and hurried glances. You know what you lost. It's still somehow my fault.
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Day Naught.
Falling.
I am
But not like the way you think I am.
Deep seated
But spiriling out of control.
Sinking deeper
Into this abyss that I call my mind.
Sprawling into darkness
Forever loosing myself.
I am.
Falling.
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Day Naught
Pursuit of happiness.
We've conflated it for the pursuit of money, power and sex.
We run to the top as fast as we can in order to feel happiness.
We sacrifice our youth and time in order to earn extra dime. We say to ourselves I'll rest when I'm dead.
But death came to us long before we noticed.
I know you've heard this all before and find it so clichy but I'm not asking you to give up chasing your money.
Just don't drag me down when we can't find anything in common.
I'm happy with my life.
I'm happy with my job.
I'm happy with how little or much I earn.
I'm content with it all.
I get you can't find your happiness.
Do another 60 hours.
I'm sure you'll find it somewhere.
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Day Naught
Love.
I never thought I'd experience like this.
Love.
Fairytales and Hollywood never told me was going to be like this.
Love.
The happiness, joy and I feel when I see you is indescribable.
Love.
From the ups and downs.
Love.
I'm grateful for knowing you.
Love.
For you showing me a new side of.
Love.
You've captured my heart and soul, filling me with Love.
For eternity.
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Day Naught
The script.
Why is scripted dialogue the benchmark? Like I don't understand this. Video essays and written ones always use film or television as the benchmark on how to navigate or interact with life. Like I don't get it, it's scripted and no one talks like that in real life. We talk over eachother, barely listen to what the other person is saying and many of us aren't able to think of witty things on the fly. We wallow about it for days thinking about what we should have said in the shower 😂
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Day Naught
Well I'm back. Well I'm sure to make my return. Sure I've lost a lot in my time away, and no not only those of you who follow along, I mean much more than that. I don't remember where I left off last, vaguely can remember but even then it was so long ago I really cannot be bothered to remember.
Does this mark my return? I sure hope it does, as I want to pursue something in writing properly, as an avenue out of where I'm stuck at the moment. I want to write a book to begin with and then grow it out from there, delving into short pieces, poems, stories and beyond. I did a lot of writing back during covid but ever since I started to return to the office I just got busy, blind-sided and ultimately lazy with the things I wanted to do.
However, these last few days I've really started to regain parts of my former self. I feel more energetic, creative and starting to feel the urge of wanting to do things again! I can't really put my finger on where that's coming from but it something that has slowly ignited and I hope to allows the embers to burst forth. I mean I made it this far where I'm actually putting fingers to keyboard.
I truly do hope that I can slowly increase my creativity once again and allow that to come to fruition. Instead of lazily writing one or two pieces and ultimately nothing for months on end.
I do miss the old me. The 2020 me. Posting daily. But that's what covid afforded us, free time and full control of time. So now the schedule is forming and becoming more stable I wish to see you all here.
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