I've noticed as I've gotten older my ability to deal with stress is slowly getting worse. It's natural when you're young to not care about things, as the impact is quite minimal. But I feel when you're older and as you gain more to lose, and so on and so forth you become that much more inadequate to deal with things. Like I want to be better equipped but sometimes life moves so fast it certainly doesn't feel that way and you'll eventually get through it and it may or may not work out but you feel oh that wasn't THAT bad but when you're going through it, it feels as if the stakes are higher.
Idk. Maybe I'm reading too much into it but when you become response for an additional person and moreso, it at times feels harder to deal with. I've become less belligerent and more understanding. Perhaps to a fault. But yeah.
Idk.
I'll just be vaguer and nonsensical next time.
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Again. 2 days. I don't know what it is. Yesterday I was working from home and boyyy I was on a roll. I was working on shit for work then I was homelabing tf out of my new setup. I've almost finished setting things up, then I got my Gemini pro limit (I'm assuming for the month?? Or day??) It's honestly made life so much easier, the perfect assistant and it's creating documentation for me on the fly so fucking amazing! Things that would have taken me months I'm managing to hang out in days.
But yeah back to the office today and it is suuuper dead honestly, idk why I'm here but is what it is. I can work on some shit and fix on some other shit. I hope to post more often until I close the gap but honestly it's going to be a busy weekend.
So until next time.
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Okay. I've managed to close the gap to only 2 days since the last post. I am trying to back fill these posts which you think would be easy but it's not. It's not that I don't want to write shit but sometimes I do forget, or it's a lack of free time I'd say. Either way it's just an excuse which I really need to straighten up.
Also random thought. Aren't toilets just weird like especially here, where I am. Just give me some water to wash my ass. It's not that hard!! Honestly pisses me off. Ontop of that no soundproofing. The poor folks near me hearing the grotesque sound of the waste exiting my ass.
So yah I am trying to figure out a new writing schedule; something like 3 days a week for me is perfect I feel. So here's hoping I manage that difficult task!
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Where does the time go. It's already been 4 days since my last post and I swear to you I do think about writing and uploading but I get so distracted and busy the moment is gone. It's actually insane, I do need to tie the ol'camel and make note of the fact that I need to get this shit done.
Here's to a full week of posts my boy!
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As I lay here awake.
Until to meet my maker.
Perhaps in a state.
In which I am not worthy.
I offer forgiveness and humbleness.
But perhaps I am not worthy.
Rest evades me.
As my eyes become hollow.
Knowing full well what comes tomorrow.
It's almost as if I cross the barrier into an unknown realm.
Marred by insomnia.
As I lay here aware.
Are you able to relate.
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Honestly getting injured is such an inconvenience, it's been 3 days going onto 4 and damn still not 100%. On top of all of this I can't even rest from home because work is so bloody busy.
I should be back to my normal routine by Thursday and full health by the weekend. One can be hopeful so gotta keep an eye on things.
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Isn't it a bit frustrating. You're starting to get into a bit of a hot streak then BAM something happens, which just derails the momentum that you're beginning to build. Starting working out again. Building up a good consistent routine then I get a random injury. I kinda know the root cause but no, it's got nothing to do with working out again – I would do well to stretch more – a random act of life, a series of random events leading up to an injury. Now I'm kinda sidelined for maybe a few days. Maybe a week. Honestly who knows but let's play it ear by ear.
It's going to be a very quiet and wet weekend.
Because of the rain. You dirty bastard.
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Ahhh I was supposed to write something yesterday but got my days mixed up thinking I already did. That's my bad, I should take better care of my writing. We've just past the half way mark and no I'm no closer to writing my first book as I was 5 years ago when the ideas first came trickling down. I don't know what it is but seems like I always put everything before it.
It's probably down to a fear of failing. It sucks but I should and have to push through it. Which is easier said than done. I feel like I always talk about pushing through but always fail to do so. I just need space and time to filter through the bullshit.
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Two days in a row. Who am I Stephen King!
In all seriousness been a busy fucking morning here in the thunderdome, as I drop the kids to the pool it allows me some breathing room to chill and reflect on things.
Life has been busy at work and outside of work. Have been really getting into the flow with some non-work projects and finally I have begun working on my homelab! Granted I have yet to build it and all the parts are here as of a couple of days ago. I need to start putting that shit together – I'm just concerned about the bios versions and the CPU gen.
Other than that I've started to take my health seriously again and begun the journey of eating better, smaller and working out more consistently. So in reality everything is sort of falling into it's painful place and I'm hoping this does also now. Just gotta find the time to do so.
But yeah those are some of the tales from the beyond.
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Hi don't know why I can't commit myself to writing. It's getting a bit absurd thinking about it. I went from writing regularly then to not at all in the space of a couple of weeks. I tried to get back into the swing of things but honestly it just failed miserably.
I've been really busy outside of work which has been contributing to this lack of time but even then it's just an excuse. I need to pick a routine that works for me and you know, just stick to it.
So here we go and let's try to reset this thing for the 200th time.
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