Day 17.5
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Teaser #1
The Lost Ones. Part 1
As she falls deeper in to the darkness that is her slumber
Time seems to have holted
As her soul wanders without a care
Runs through the earth without fear
As her mind chases, attempting to match its flair
Upon the blaring trumpet, the body revolted
The slumber was split asunder
Her eyes open, despretly clinging onto the darkeness in which they favour
The ears register the frantic noise
The body shuffles back and forth longing for that soulfilled experience
A light shines from beneath her
Her eyes register it, makes out the number 10, 30?
It’s her phone. And she’s late. Lol
Day 17
Ah yes today started like no other, extreme stomach pains but I got a handle on that fairly quickly. It seems like my Friday's have their own routine now (basically I have a bath instead of a shower), I also didn't sleep as much as I usually do which I don't really know how I feel about, sure my eyes aren't hurting but I do feel a little more lazy and tired, to be honest I don't really feel as sharp as I usually do. I feel slow.
I got a fair amount of work done today, but I was extremely ineffiecient to say the least. But it got dealt with so that's always a nice feeling, knowing that I did some work. I also have taken it easy, I guess that's why I feel slow today, because I know that I don't really need to kick it to a higher, more productive gear. I can take it at my own pace and do it.
Day 16
Man, oh man. I keep waking up tired and my eyes are always hurting me. I have been going asleep a bit too late as of late but I get 8+ hours on a daily, maybe it's because I sleep too much. I'll try waking up early tomorrow morning and see what happens.
This morning and early afternoon have been a bit too busy for my liking, it doesn't help that I have this sense of urgency and nagging feeling that I'm running out of time, with larger than life issues hanging over my head but it's not the caase at all. I've got a few tasks from work to do and a couple of small personal stuff and one large task that I need to finish off by today. (I promised a friend I'll do some stuff for him today) Maybe its the need to finish that off that's throwing everything else out of balance and I can't work on it due to work stuff. But I'll do as much as I can now and go from there.
Day 15
Ahhh half a month later and I'm on a damn roll! I kid, I am struggling to put pen to paper I really don't know what to write. I've also modified my proccess of writing these daily posts to attempt to capture my day. I usually begin when I get to my desk and add bits and bobs throughout the day.
This morning not much has happened, woke up, shower and at my desk. I've been thinking of ways to ascertain financial independants; so a lot of my thought has been dedicated there. I also need to finish sorting and cleaning up my room at some point today so that'll be fun. I got some work tasks to do so I'll leave it here for now.
Day 14
A lot happened, well you can say, not a lot happened today. Why is it your body wants extra sleep during work days, super annoying. Then my net wasn't working and that took ¾ hours for it to come back online. Luckily I got a good data plan for my phone, so all was not lost.
Then from there, the feeling of tiredness and tiredness really set me back a lot, it added to the lethargy but after taking a chair from the kitchen, refreshening myself up and then stretching I was all set to go. Also eating helped out a lot.
Day 13
So, I made a mistake in my last post, I had Day 11 and subsequently used it twice. None of you, out of all of my one fan, failed to inform me lol and I didn't realise there was a 'Next' button located at the bottom of the screen (I just assumed it was continuous) so that's cool. Been at it for almost two weeks now. So yeah just wanted to clear that up. Which has gotten me thinking shall I rearrange the way the posts are organised, to have the latest at the top...I'll see.
Day 12
Today was my first real 'normal' day. Lockdown is technically over, and the family wanted to go for a walk. So we all did. It was really quite enjoyable being out in the open, soaking in the sun, fresh air and violent winds. Saw some horses and cows as well as the school of the ruling class.
Overall it was pleasant. But that did mean I sacrificed my usual routine, any time spent being productive as I spent most of my day with my family and going for a 2 or so hour walk haha. I'd say it was worth it, I got to really get my mind out of everything and got to relax, mingled with friends and family for the first time in ages (out of my damn house).
I am getting quite tired, hence the shoddy post this evening but hey, at least I wrote something unlike last Sunday lol.
Day 11
Today, my God, today was a tough day if I don't say so myself. Let's start from the top: 12AM, I went out for the first time in awhile met some friends, caught up with some old faces and started out as decent. As the night dragged on I wasn't too happy and to be honest I just wanted to go back home. Then as I was being dropped off home by a friend, I had a very enjoyable conversation with him which last just over an hour. Honestly it pretty much saved the night for me. At this point I get into bed and it's around half 3. I'm on my phone and see the Disney + app. “I want to watch Hamilton” I said to myself, so I did (I regret nothing) as I get to one of my favourite numbers, I look at the time and it's really late. Around 4:40 if I recall correctly, so I decide to call it. By the time I'm ready to sleep I feel a migrane coming over me and it's 5. I sleep. Only to wake up at 10AM.
Day 10
The big 1 0, double digits, I'm pretty chuffed that I got this far. Yes, yes I know the patting on the back is getting a bit annoying I mean I'm only writing nonsense everyday; it isn't that hard. BUT it means something to me and that's all that matters ahah.
Well in all honesty today I feel pretty good, a contributing factor is the fact that my IKEA desk drawers finally came (AFTER 3 WEEKS!!) and I get to build them at some point today (I still need a good chair though) which has its merits provided it all goes smoothly. So for the first time since March I'm going to have a proper sitting desk, my body will thank me for this greatly no doubt. I'm hoping my productivity shall improve also and I can start doing the stuff I wanted to.
Day 9
So, back to normal today, slept as usual and woke up as usual. But I didn't want to write too early today. Wanted to let my thoughts mellow and reflect a little on things. I've been feeling an increase of stress in regards to some decisions I have to make in my life. I don't remember when I stopped handling stress well, maybe when it become life impacting but that's not to say I'm going to breakdown and curl up in a ball because unfortunately – or fortunately depending how you look at it – I can't reallly afford that luxury. Time waits for no man as they say. So I just got to buckle down and think about my future, fight past the stress, the overwhelming cold waves of the ocean swallowing me whole not allowing me to breath. It feels like I don't have time to think about things either which doesn't help nor the people to talk to. So I'm even more in my head about things.
But I shall persevere because I just have to do so.