Day 9 So, back to normal today, slept as usual and woke up as usual. But I didn't want to write too early today. Wanted to let my thoughts mellow and reflect a little on things. I've been feeling an increase of stress in regards to some decisions I have to make in my life. I don't remember when I stopped handling stress well, maybe when it become life impacting but that's not to say I'm going to breakdown and curl up in a ball because unfortunately – or fortunately depending how you look at it – I can't reallly afford that luxury. Time waits for no man as they say. So I just got to buckle down and think about my future, fight past the stress, the overwhelming cold waves of the ocean swallowing me whole not allowing me to breath. It feels like I don't have time to think about things either which doesn't help nor the people to talk to. So I'm even more in my head about things.
But I shall persevere because I just have to do so.
In other news, I recently discovered The Strokes, you know I'm enjoying that lol. Their performances on Conan are pretty awesome. Musicians, artists and the like really give me motivation that things are indeed possible, which inturn feeds into my bottle optimism. That all I can do is try my best and the rest will play out, whether is succeeds or not that's irrelavent.
We all got to water ourselves and feed on sunshine if we want to grow.
I know it's not much today, I've been too up in my own head as of late but I'm going to get through it and carry on moving forward.
P.S. I've got a new pinned page, check it out or not I'm not your parent: https://write.as/mfwritings/about-me